Dear Lady. Ann:
First and foremost I want to say thank God for using you on this platform and reaching out to the hurting women from all walks of life.
My life’s journey has not been an easy one. From childhood there were things I experienced that I prayed God would undo or erase from my memory. Sexual abuse, abandonment, rejection and feelings of like an outcast; I carried them all. Fast forward to my adult life, I’ve met men who I thought would fill that empty void in my heart. Although I knew God as a child, I did it my way, as we all do! God was someone I remembered on a Sunday morning and was placed back on the shelf until I had a crisis in my life and remembered Him then.
I sought love in all the wrong places, I took risks in my life. How I am still alive today is because of God’s grace and mercy. I have been that woman who was always nursing a broken heart than being in love! Late last year, I thought I would help God find my husband. I paid ridiculous amounts of money to join some of the most promising dating websites. I joined them all. Then lockdown happened, I told myself this is the only way right now, after all it was during lockdown where would I meet anyone. But like you mentioned in one of your prophesy “someone with a mask on their face”, I connected with someone almost instantly and it’s wasn’t even because of my pictures. We exchanged numbers and suddenly they would stop talking or disappear from the face of the earth! The spirit of rejection is real!!!
This last incident, I thought I had met the one. We prayed together, made future plans. We had met as that’s when we could. He too suddenly stopped communication and when he finally reached out, I could tell all he had said and promised were lies. I ran to God in anger and frustration. But God is sooooooo faithful! He was like “I have been trying to get your full attention all these years and you still disobeyed.” He stripped me of myself, and I now get it why I have been rejected by these men. So that God could have all of me for Himself. I can relate to Jonah in the bible in a way.
God had to bring him to a place of submission to break his stubbornness and disobedience.
Right now I am at the happiest in my singleness as my relationship with my Heavenly Father is all I needed, ever needed. And God knew that; He wanted to heal me before He opened a door for me to meet my future husband and I am obedient to that. “His will and not my will!”
“His timing and not mine!!”. God knows the desires of my heart, but for now I am focused on seeking Him first and His Kingdom.
I came across “Lady Ann” about 5 days ago by chance and your first video I watched was how God led you to meet your husband. But now I think it wasn’t by chance! Thank you so much, words aren’t enough to how grateful I am for your prayers and encouraging words. You’re such an inspiration!